February 2010
49 posts
Hello february. Goodbye January. New Month, Chinese New Year, Valentine’s day. Hope for a great month ahead. (: And, Happy Birthday Yvonne. You start the ball rolling and we will all come along. Haha. Loves.
January 2010
61 posts
Hi, My name is Karenn Yap and I’m a robot. Nice to meet you. I don’t want to be a robot. I want a life, my life, Happy life.
I failed. I was emotionally affected.Mentally too. Maybe I’m just weak.not strong enough I’m really tired of trying. Physically and Mentally tired. Please someone please be there to keep me strong, I need someone. I’m not born to be, but I’m trying to be. sigh ):
he said, “I hate you” I cried. )’:
because my heart broke into a zillion pieces.
Today is the fitness test, and my menses came today. Problematic. And it will affect my fitness. ): Ohwell. Strong mind, it will not affect. Hope it will not. Nothing is going to stop me. Confidence. Baby’s not in school today, he overslept. My shoe is with him, cos the locker key is with him. Ohwell, not sure he will come later, but i know he will. that idiot. “Stop thinking...
Hello. Training today as usual, wait for baby as usual. Bathe and went to Lot1 for ‘The Legion’, not my kinda movie, but not so bad. Something like Angels and Demons? Kinda scary though, Haha, I don’t watch scary movie and stuff.Haha. I get frightened easily :x So, we brought Takoyaki, Old Chang Kee and Oyster Mee Sua into the cinema :D Herbal tea and Home. I’m so tired...
Oh hello friday. finally its friday and two more weeks of school. hooray. then i can see holiday, happy new year! woo! :D now i realised whats wrong with me, im having burnout and its burnout ttm. Lol. thanks to elaine and minghee for sports educating me. else, I’ll be going crazy. visit http://burnouttothemax.blogspot.com and thats all i was feeling that time. totally shagged out....
Acting strong, holding back tears. Doing thing for people’s sake. that’s not me. I feel like crying, but I hid it everytime. I want to do things that make myself happy, but have you all let me done that. don’t control me. I want to be alone. fly to a faraway island with beautiful flowers,beautiful sea,peaceful, away from all problems, away from everything.
Even if it is to...
what's wrong.
there you stole it all away. And it’s all my fault? are you sure? There’s no one there, anymore.
EGO
I realised my ego is very very big, bigger than some guys. I want to prove others they are wrong so badly. I want to beat everyone and I want to be first. Ego is such a killer. But still, thats what I desire. Had enough and its time.
Small but strong still lives in me. What I lack is confident, and I’m building it up, tall and strong this time. “I’ve never give up on you” by two precious thing of mine. and I shan’t give up on myself. Train Hard Karenn. I will only get stronger and stronger.
“Being together is more than just physical. It’s understanding the other person,...”
– (via poeticheartache) (via wordsfromthewise) (via sharonstfu)
Alright, if you all have realised that I’ve been really stress and depress the past few days. About a lot of stuff. And yes it have made me really unhappy. But, its all over. And I’m back to normal now(: Baby brought me back to normal. Thank you so much baby. I’m sorry for everything. Oh yeah, was counting the calendar that day, and I realised its our 99days together...
I love my baby alot alot alot. I feel like a shit when I’m being so selfish. He’s always there. Always. I need to control my temper. I promise. He is falling sick and I’m damn worried. ): please stay strong my dear, have enough rest. Please drink lotsa water and eat medicine. Im always close to your heart, know that im there. Please stay strong, I know you are very strong...
don’t make me like someone i hate. because that feeling is damn fcked up. it’s like i’ve got the right to dislike whoever it is. you have got your rights too. So what if we were friends, Things changed. Don’t like means don’t like! don’t try to make things better because it wouldn’t get better. Don’t ever try! Worst still when everybody is...
i don’t know what/how i’m feeling right now. it feel so painful. i can’t explain. The best I can do is to cry it out. I nearly let go of you. which is something i don’t want to do. but you stil hold me tight. tears are rolling down my eyes. it feels like something stuck at my throat. I can’t find the word. Help Me.
who’s at fault? your fault my fault? Everybody have our faults at times. but don’t tell me you have never make any mistakes before in life? I have made alot of mistakes, learning from it, treating it as lessons. Phobia still, but staying strong. I’m human, I have feelings, I will breakdown. When the burden is too heavy for me, I can’t take it anymore. I need someone to...
People with no originality, copy cats. Exactly the same. screw you. have some originality please?
yesterday I was veryvery happy. cos baby came to surprise me. He didn’t have school, no training, and he msged me he was tired and so he was going for a nap! I was at koufu that time, went over to sports complex, sat down, and suddenly someone tap me from behind, First turn, who was it? dont care, and something not right. hmm, TURNED AGAIN! IT WAS BABY! :D damn freaking happy. he ran...
baby is having a headache and he’s not in school.I’m guilty cos i wasn’t there to takecare of him. but, there’s school to attend. I’m so sorry baby! I’m so tired in school, i wanna sleep. today is on immunology on Kidney transplantation. And I’m so hungry, I haven’t go for my first break, I miss my U-mian in koufu. I just had my kit-kat to cover up...
my baby is the silliest thing on earth. don’t know to smile or cry. but he’s just so precious. When i went out to training today, mummy never carry junior to say byebye to me. then, i call back in the morning to ask where’s junior! cos i miss that babygirl! haha! I miss my family too, alot! (: I’m so tired, so sleepy. Gonna be our third tomorrow (: 100110! yay. ...
Baby bought me brownie. Thankyou my sweet. loveyou.
wednesday.
Hello tumblr, miraculously im so early for school today. Class starts at 9.15am and im in the train at 8.30am. So, reach woodlands and decided to walk to school, save my bus fare too! :D it’ve been years since I walked to school, ever since year1 days? yes, walking to school alone. And my earpiece spoiled, so without music, just enjoying the morning breeze. quite cool actually! (: its...
such a disappointment.